wow my first ever blog in my lyf!

This is kinda weird to do it in a way because I never was much of a writer person myself haha.
In fact, I never thought I would be EVER make my own website by myself because I always thought that I was too dumb to understand it or do it.

Right now im lowkey in a stage where I have my average summer depression which means barely having any motivation to do anything. Which really sucks, I dont have much will to work on my website (other than the random spikes I get that cause me to work on it at like, 1-3am????)

Even the thought about drawing physically and mentally drains my soul because EVERY TIME I try to it looks total buns broooo : (((((((

Talking with any of my friends makes me ill in my stomach too, it makes me go away on a bus and dissapear to the central city to go jump in a big ass river they have with the tall bridge.
the concept of my suicide (preferably alone, quiet, uninterrupted, and unseen by people (in that case id probably be better doing it somewhere else, perchance in the woods)) makes me very happy and sad at the same time like bro its like trying to walk while weighting 6000 tons.

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